SkylarStormdale

it's not worth living but we still try to live it.

True. Whilst reading these messages... I can relate exactly how you're feeling inside as i've been there 😥 It's imperative that you confide in someone about your troubles man (even in confidence) Opening up is tough, but it helps. There are genuine people who want to support you and provide the care you desperately need. I hope that you start to enjoy life again soon! Take care, Lee x 

I never have enjoyed life, though - that's the thing. Being ostracized, abused, suppressed will do that. You know how I mentioned in that "fed up" thread how I used to be on the radio? I was a voice for myself and others out there like me, those who have had life kept away from us, who simply need some humanity. And what did that get me? Being jumped and sexually assaulted (not sure if the "R" word is too strong for SW here per the Rules) - for daring to run a news story on the air about racial hate crimes and hazing committed by several fraternities (forget the exact details - PTSD and this happened back in '11). I just recently got back to a point where I recorded a podcast and published it. But at this point, the loneliness and ostracism are just too much to bear. Hardly anyone wants to see any value in me to share any humanity.

Basically, by this point, I'm gonna publish my writings and recordings, get them into the public realm, and then I'm outta here. Maybe in the future they'll finally resonate and a bright, civilized, inclusive future can be had partially based on them (and others like me).